Resisting the Urge

So, tomorrow is test date.  I cheated and tested on Monday after promising the Hubs I would wait, but it was Valentine's Day and I had such great feelings about getting a BFP and telling him on Valentine's Day that we were gonna be parents!!!

So, of course, the test was negative.  And I was sad, but I was trying to keep in mind that Monday was only 11 days past IUI (dpiui). 

The Hubs busted me, of course, and made me promise that I would wait to take the test when he could be with me.  And I promised, of course.  But being home alone tonight is really hard...really tempting...and I'm not gonna do it.  I'm not gonna.  I am the worst liar and I know that if it is negative, I'll be sad and if it's positive, I'll be ecstatic and never forgive myself for knowing before the Hubs. 

Maybe I should go to bed now to further resist temptation.  So praying we have a happy Friday.