Renewed Hope

Despite some drama at work, today was a good day.  A very good day.  I had my annual well-woman exam (I hate that name...well woman?  really?) scheduled with my regular OB/GYN (whom I adore) and I must say I was totally dreading it.  I had put off scheduling this appointment with the thought that I'd get pregnant and it wouldn't be necessary because I'd be there for my OB appointments anyway.  Obviously I was wrong.

So as my last post revealed, I was in a pretty negative mood, already deciding that this month is also a bust (even though I'm only about 3-4 days past ovulation - DPO) and that I was ready to give up and take a break for an undetermined length of time.  Fortunately, I left my appointment with a much different outlook and plan.  I literally had to restrain myself from squealing and skipping out to my car.

I mentioned that I adore my OB/GYN.  Not only do I adore him, I adore almost every single person who works in his office.  They seem to have all the time in the world to talk to you about your problems even though they are an extremely busy office - and they care, they really care.  I must confess that I am aware of how busy they are, so really truly try not to take up all of their time.  So I arrive to my appointment, chat with the office manager, then head into the room for my talk with the doctor.  He of course comes in and starts out with asking how I'm doing.  I give my standard reply: "I'm doing okay." 

"Just okay?"  he asks, "Why just okay?" He then asks about how things have been going with the RE and what they've done.  For the sake of keeping this entry from being extremely lengthy, I'll abbreviate the rest of the appointment to just say that at this point, I'm not returning to my RE's office if I'm not pregnant this month.  My regular OB (whom we will now refer to as Dr. DR) is going to switch me to Femara (for a variety of reasons) which I have taken before, he is going to handle the IUI in his office and assured me he would come in on a weekend, at night, whatever we needed to do the inseminations.  Did I mention how much I love him?  In addition, after sharing with him some crazy clotting and cramping I was having during my period of my second month on Clomid (sorry if TMI), he tells me that it was quite possibly an early pregnancy miscarriage and my RE shouldn't have disregarded my concerns, they should have had me come in to check it out.  I really hate to think that I might have gotten preggers again and lost it - multiple miscarriages on top of trouble conceiving might just send me over the edge - so I'm trying not to concentrate on it too much. 

He's also referring me to another RE that he's going to try to help us get into without the 4-5 month wait.  But keep in mind that in the mean time, as we wait to see this new doctor, Dr. DR (whom I adore) is going to take care of us and try to help us. 

I felt so much better leaving his office today with this new plan.  All of my fears and thoughts were validated by him and he has given me a renewed sense of hope for us to keep going. 

Tomorrow night is my first acupuncture consult/appointment, so I am feeling good about what is to come.  Let's just pray I don't lose my hope again...

Below is a picture of me showing how I feel today.  Okay, it's not really me, but it shows how I feel...if I were pale with two pieces of hair and a stick figure.