You know you're desperate when...

You're googling "how to get pregnant" and actually reading the ones with "find the secrets to conceiving fast here."  Wow...I'm truly desperate.

What else is a girl to do, though?  I have no explanation for why we're not preggers...are my eggs just bad, are they snobby and won't play nice with the Hubs spermies or am I just not meant to be a mother?  I just don't get it and I want to scream.

Christmas is less than a week away and I can't stop thinking that if we wouldn't have lost our baby, we'd be celebrating our first Christmas as a family this year.  But why does having a baby equal a family?  I have a pretty sweet little kitty lying on my lap right now (bless his sweet heart, he seems to know when mommy needs cuddling), but he (and I) would definitely disagree if anyone said we didn't have a family.  He has taught me how to be a mommy...even if it's to a child with a long tail and whiskers.  But God is he cute. 

Little Man, I love the way your feet match your tummy!!!

Too bad I can't dress him in all of the cute baby clothes I've been stashing away for the past year and a half.  Or could I????